So, I haven't started this diet thing yet... why, you ask? I have no clue... other than my life is just in shambles right now. 2 months ago, my husband of 20 years left me for a girl he works with. The last 2 months have been absolute hell. He moved out, we are sharing the boys, one week with me, one week with him. He wants to remain friends. Some days I can handle that, some days I can't. We talked about getting back together early on, but it didn't happen. We are now talking about it again. It's hard to just let go after 20 years of marriage and 23 years being best friends. The thing is, I don't want to lose who I am, who I have become, who I am becoming. I am getting a little stronger every day, and I don't want that to change. I CAN live without him... I just don't really want to. I do love him still, and probably will forever. I just want it to be right.
Anyway, so, it's been really hard to get STARTED dieting again. I eat sporadically, like last night, I didn't really have a lot of food in the house, so I got Taco Bell for the boys and got myself a vanilla Diet Coke from Sonic... that was my dinner... I was starving this morning so I swung through McD's and got sausage McMuffins and a frappe. Not a good choice!! I have to start having more healthy choices in the house, like fruits and vegetables! And I have to start exercising!!
The weekend will be spent as follows:
Tonight: Hanging with the boys!
Saturday: The boys are going to the barn so I will be designing a photo album and maybe working on some Christmas presents.
Sunday: It's my birthday!!:) My theory: If 40 is the new 30, then I will only be 29!! ;) My husband and the boys are taking me out for the day on the town! Starbucks, shopping at Zona Rosa, and Minskey's Pizza!! Can't wait!!:)
So, the weekend is kind of blown as far as dieting... so Monday is the day!! I NEED to do this!!
Steph
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